a pep talk for perfectionist writers

I have never considered myself an "adventurous" or "experimental" writer. And, if I am being honest, I don't even know what it means to be adventurous or experimental at all. Is it content? Form? Format? Medium? A twist ending? I have always tried to be as buttoned-up as possible with my writing. That means everything had to make sense to me, everything had to be tidy and neat and, well, complete.

The downside of this is that I began (and maybe still do) to view my first drafts as final drafts.

But a writing workshop is not supposed to entertain your most perfect pieces, I am learning. I am also learning that the workshops in my MFA program are not the same as the ones I experienced in the past, which felt more like stoning ceremonies.

So, erm, I guess what I'm trying to say is: I have been working on something uncomfortable and confounding and complicated and usually I would discard it because it is not perfect and it feels like I am just writing for myself and because it is hard to talk about such things but since I am in an MFA program and this is one of the few times in my life that I can be imperfect with my writing then well I guess I just have to work up the courage to fail because how else am I supposed to grow????????????